hi god it’s me… so uh, things aren’t turning out like I’d planned, and I’m kind of gonna ask for a refund now. *phone clicks*

if i had a backyard i would bury all my memories of you in it

in the mood to bite a girl until she bleeds and make bruises down her spine from how hard I slam her against the mattress ok

my heart just broke again

I am honestly so happy to be such a beautiful, passionate mess of a person, as tormented as I may be right now. I don’t believe it now but I will find someone I will love even harder than I love you someday.

in my head we’re together. in my head the hounds aren’t howling, the rain isn’t pouring. the sky is clear and the stars and the moon are shining as hard as we are, glowing and alive and bathing in each other’s light. in my head we’re okay, in my head there’s a place where we’re always okay.

please come lay with me, shield me, make me forget. just for a moment. come home, let me unfold and lose myself in your light.
not strong enough right now, hiding in the folds of warm memories.

and I’ve stopped eating
and drinking
and smoking
and breathing
so I should be pure by now

quick but still beautiful shibari job I got done at a burn this past weekend

spent the day soaking up the sunlight like a little flower 🌼
gone to the mountain in my mind :)
actually just had an ex of mine insinuate that the fact that someone raped me is my fault because I “put myself in positions like that,” when I came to him upset because my own father called me a hoe after I explained what happened. disgusting fucking scum of the earth. rot in hell. tired of this shit.

:( I just want to cuddle a pretty girl as tiny as I am and share a joint while we play with each other’s hair……

decompression and reprieve in my room, museum of my heart, filled with books and dream-catchers, teacups and mountains of pillows, air thick with incense and candles and imperceptible heartbeats. reading and drinking amongst fluffy floral bedspreads and warmly glowing christmas lights. .. ….